2010 - pregnant
I've been driving without an AC all summer - sweating it out and attempting to plan and strategize for the fastest way to get from place to place, always parking in the shade if at all possible, and nearly dying when I was caught in traffic and left sweltering. Yesterday my current boss mentioned that it's been the hottest summer in Dallas that he's experienced since he moved here in 1981, that's before I was born! Just my luck that the heat wave arrives the summer I am here and without AC and pregnant.
Okay, so this summer has been FAR worse. Sad day. BUT, I have AC. Happy day.
2009 - newly living with roommates
Isaac started seminary again this week, and his stress level is sky-high. Last week before school started he cooked dinner one night (that never happens). As I was dishing my food up he went and settled in his easy chair, clearly very pleased with himself, and said, "Man, it sure is nice to see me contributing more around here." Hah!
We are in deep Texas summer. August is to Texas what February is to Chicago. My first year in Chicago I never complained about the cold. It was a wonderful change. Yes, it was brutal, but it didn't bother me. After six years of it, I thought I was going to die if I had to suffer through another winter. I expect that after a few more years here, I'll be dying to go to a more temperate region!
That is true. I am dying to get away from the heat.
Tonight Isaac and I went on a date to my favorite area of Dallas. We hit up an amazing Chinese spot - and I don't usually even like Chinese! I suppose that's because most Chinese I've had in the US is fast-food and Americanized, and barely goes beyond orange chicken (with very little chicken underneath the orange). This place rocked, and afterwards we stopped next door and picked up a Hong-Kong style milk tea with bubbles, which pretty makes me the happiest woman alive tonight.
Weird. We just went to the same bubble tea place a couple days ago.And now I feel like I do actually know what good Chinese food tastes like.
What am I still doing in the US? I know what I'm doing here. We're gettin' educated. And I'm ok with that. I guess it just scares me, to realize that I've been in this country now for seven years. And I've got three more to go. It scares me because I think I might get stuck. What we're doing now is to equip us, but once that's finished, we're off! Out into the wide world and away from the expectations of settling down to a white-picket fence. I don't want a fence. I don't want to own a house. I don't want to own a set of china or spend my life growing a retirement fund. If I were to do that, I think I could be comfortable, but also empty.
So we gotta get out of here. Out of the American life. Exploring a new place. Confronting the rawness and discomfort that is life in the third world.
Indeed. I mostly still echo this, except perhaps with less bitterness towards America.
2007 - new to Dallas:
The guys I work for have deeply impressed me. Their approach to faith, to work, to relationships... it's all so refreshing. One guy has a degree in law, knows some Indonesian, left the mission field with a deteriorating neurological disease, and has Dostoevsky, Sartre, Nietzsche, and many others on his shelf. Yay for intelligent people. Funny. Same guy just led my meeting today. Still highly respect these guys.
.... I told Isaac how I didn’t like Dallas and I was lonely and ended up in tears…. And after both venting we felt a lot better and went to work out and afterwards were inspired and jumped into the pool outside the workout room fully clothed. Funny again. We're back in the same complex, swimming in the same pool every other day.
Living with laundry, a trash disposal, a dishwasher, a workout room, and a pool all at our fingertips makes daily life much more simple then Chi-town. This apartment is the best part of life here so far. 2nd time around, I still love this complex. :)
2006 - working in Chicago
I am not a salesperson, so I can't relate to how sales driven this company is. I have no objection to our profit margin decreasing. In my mind that's helping the consumer, and this company is not in dire need of a profit. The emphasis on making more money is completely alien to my nature. I long to see that I'm touching someones' life, that I've had a true heart-to-heart interaction with someone. It's the counseling influence in my life - I feel like the value of a person totally sinks in this atmosphere. Interesting. I am not working a "counseling" position at all, but feel very fitted to my current administrative role.
Photo from August '06 blog post - me and co-workers helping run a massive catering event in which Elton John and a million dollar fireworks show was the entertainment.
2005 - Newly graduated, newly married
Dr. Easley talked about the Church being Christ's presence here, and that's where we take refuge.I don't know, it just was bugging me, the subject of the church. Christianity, yeah. Individual faith, yeah. Friendships, yeah. But you know what, as for a local church, I don't know that I've ever felt like that was my refuge. Wish I had a community of faith to guide me. Wow, in this area I have been transformed. My idea of what the "church" is and why it is important has been formed in a huge way, and I DO feel like I have a community of faith that has guided and pushed me.
(Venting after a co-worker told me the honeymoon stage would pass and I would learn to resent my marriage): ...marriage is a responsibility not weighted by feelings. You are not sweet to your wife/husband because you feel romantic, you are RESPONSIBLE to be sweet to them regardless of your feelings or their response. Therefore when the honeymoon stage passes, you can't stop caring. You vowed a heck of a lot in that ceremony, you are responsible to follow through with that for life. I feel too young to have a leg to stand on when I preach my views on dating, romance, and marriage, and yet they are STRONG.
Preach it, self. You didn't have a leg to stand on, but six years later I still believe and preach the same thing.And, FYI, you married a pretty great guy.